Saturday, February 13, 2016

My State of the Blog Address

So here's the thing, sweet friends.

We need to talk about the blog.

I've had this little spot on the web for almost eight years. Seven of those years I've been single and childless and living in my cute bachelorette pad of an apartment. Now I'm married, a home owner, and the mama of two little ones (one in Heaven and one growing beneath my heart).

Even though to me it's been a lovely, smooth transition, the reality is that my life has drastically changed. And I feel like I don't know how to blog anymore. Can I share something with you? Especially you longtime readers...

I'm afraid you're going to think I've turned into a mommy-blogger.

I'm not. But yet I am.

Stay with me. (both in this post and for good-- ha!)

For years I've shared with you my heartaches, my joys, my reflections as a single woman learning to trust God on the journey. The reality is that I'm still that same woman, still learning to trust God on this new journey. My path looks a little different, but my heart looks a lot the same. 

In some ways, my heart will continue to relate most deeply to single women or women struggling with infertility. Honestly, sometimes I feel more comfortable in those circles than in circles of married mamas who haven't had those struggles. To the average reader walking in, I'm a woman with a husband, a home, and a baby on the way. But how do I let them know my heart remembers...my heart remembers the nights after breakups and my broken engagement, the confusion with God's plan and wondering if I was even on the right path. My heart remembers the years of diagnoses and the treatments for a body that won't work right. My heart remembers the tears and overwhelming grief from losing our first little one. My heart still struggles with fear at times that we'll lose this one, too.

So there it is. This tension and struggle of how to embrace and share this new season of life with you while remaining relevant and real to my past readers. The desire to say, I'm still me, while also rejoicing in the new beauty of marriage and homemaking and pregnancy.

In the end, at our very core we are simply women. Whether old or young, married or single, physical mother or spiritual mother, we share the same joys and struggles. We all know hope, disappointment, loneliness, love, joy, longing, and fear. 

So stay with me, old readers? Get to know me, new readers? We're all in this together, this crazy adventure called life.

And no matter what season we find ourselves in today, if we have the eyes to see it and the heart open to God's grace, we will find that life is beautiful. 

9 comments:

  1. Actually, you make me want to start blogging again as a single young woman living on my own and... waiting. But I still feel the need to take a step back from that. So, we'll see. And I'll keep praying about blogging. But I still love reading yours! It's my favorite these days for the very reasons you mention: you are so real; when I read your blog I do feel like I'm enjoying a cup of tea with you. It's so relaxing and encouraging for me as I work and pray and hope.

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    1. Your comment warmed my heart like a cup of tea!!! So sweet! I'm glad you are encouraged by my blog and see my heart.

      Let me know if you start back to blogging! :)

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  2. Hey, whoever you turn into over time, that's who you are and whose blog we come to follow. It is so, so beautiful to see people's lives change over time! I think really that's one of the best parts about following for a long time. We get to see God work in each other's lives! So whatever you write about, just like you said, we're all women who share joys and struggles. We might not all share the same life experiences, but we can all meet each other where we are :-) Life is definitely beautiful!

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    1. Very true and good point about seeing God at work in each other's lives as seasons change! <3

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  3. Laura, you put into words something that I've been thinking about lately! Part of me has wondered, "Since I'm pregnant, does that make me a Mommy blogger? But so many of my readers aren't moms, and I don't want to seem like an unreachable person! And I don't want my blog to suddenly become 'everything children/mommy related." As I think about it more and more, I've realized what you wrote so well-"I'm still me." And while whatever season of life or vocation a person is in, we are fundamentally still ourselves, and despite all differences, we can share our unique experiences, insights, and views with other people!

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    1. Yes! I'm seeking to find the balance of sharing my life where it currently is focused-- on hubby, children, and home-- yet not having every post related to that because I'm still a unique individual and daughter of God and not "just" defined by those roles. :)

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  4. We all evolve, grow, and change over time, yet all the while staying the same person at the core of it all. I am the "same" as when I was in my teens, but I have so much more wisdom and patience that allow me to be a better me. And yet, I can relive so many experiences from past seasons of my life as if they happened yesterday. It all adds to who we are in the present time. Beautiful post.

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  5. We all evolve, grow, and change over time, yet all the while staying the same person at the core of it all. I am the "same" as when I was in my teens, but I have so much more wisdom and patience that allow me to be a better me. And yet, I can relive so many experiences from past seasons of my life as if they happened yesterday. It all adds to who we are in the present time. Beautiful post.

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    1. Yes, it's such an interesting feeling to grow and mature and change yet still keep the same 'core' and soul we've always had. :)

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